Saturday, December 26, 2015


So here I sit
8 minutes to midnight in a shallow *heavy breath* dam
How do I explain the mood I'm in
Words I cannot explain
When love cannot even talk to me
Or maybe Im set to settle for what was given to me
However all I can think of is the sign
That sign I asked for from my late brother
Whom I went to see this past weekend
A day before my departure
And G_d, right in the presence of my late brother
To give me a sign
Today, fuzzy, but clear and lost
Emotions, numb, feelings, numb
Should I be torn?
Should I be protecting my heart in a hazzle but shell?
Should I keep praying for a clearer sign
To set me free to my own pastures
I am lost